MERRY CHRISTMAS FROM MY FAMILY TO YOUR FAMILY.
This is my poem that was published on the newsletter at the Annual Candle Lighting from The Compassionate Friends in my town.
Yesterday was a sad moment seeing my precious son Patrick's name and pictures on display among the children who were gone way too soon from us... Yesterday was also my Christmas moment in memory of my beautiful son Patrick Christian who has forever changed my life the day he left me empty, confused, and so alone to grieve!
Lighting a candle for my son Patrick
Before I lost my son Patrick
Lighting a candle was just a tradition
To get my prayers answered more quickly,
But today after I lost my son Patrick
Lighting a candle is a painful reminder
Of my greatest loss of a beautiful life cut
So short... My son Patrick.
Lighting a candle is now an unthinkable,
Unbearable reminder of so many hopes
And dreams taken away from me.
But in the depth of my sorrowful journey,
Lighting a candle is also precious
Memories of Patrick that are taken into my
Broken heart and shattered soul as a
Keepsake to keep his memories alive
Beyond my life on earth.
Lighting a candle for my son is my faith
In God to embrace Patrick's new life
As glorious and peaceful as His kingdom.
Lighting a candle for my son Patrick is a
Symbol of my eternal love for him
That I am his mom and he is my son for
Eternity, for love never dies but grows
Deeper.
Lighting a candle will always surround
The beautiful soul of Patrick wherever I am
To guide him into eternal life.
Lighting a candle says it all Son:
I love you
I miss you
I need you
I am here for you always
You see, God, lighting a candle is a
Must... A link from me a lost mother to my
Beautiful son Patrick.
O Lord, Let it Shine High and Bright!!!
Amen. Amen. Amen.
Dedicated to my son Patrick Christian
LostMom to Patrick Barbosa
Merry Christmas from my family to yours
You and Your Angel will be in my prayers!
God Bless!
I Know You'll Get By
My son speaks to me:
It's been two years and four months
since I last said "goodbye"
I've seen you pick up the pieces
of your broken dreams and this makes me cry,
I've seen you rise from the ashes..
of an overwhelming sorrow
The long, dark nights that spelled of no tomorrows
and yet you bounced back with..
A strength and spirit on fire
amazing mom that you are! I think I know why..
These are my answered prayers..
For God to help you get by.
I know it's been tough and so hard
on your part to live without your son,
I see you weep brokenly each time
that you miss and long for me
In between the tears though..
I hear you laugh, sing and skip to a tune,
Every time you are touched by Someone..
you sense but cannot see,
I've never stopped asking God to be there
with you always for me.
I've walked with you through that
long, arduous journey called grief
Dauntless, you have learned to live
life without my presence..
To revisit the loss in its very essence,
to memorialize me in the pages
Of your books, journals and poems,
forging ahead, meeting head on
The cruel, blinding wind and rain..
that's My Mom all over again!
Look at you mom! you've pulled yourself through,
shifting slowly between the shadows and the light!
Like a fragile butterfly you have wiggled yourself
out of the cocoon of darkness and gloom!
To soar on beautiful wings towards..
a world that awaits you in pure delight!
From the depths of your grief
You have been transformed into..
A more loving, feeling, caring soul,
that you so loved me yet dared to let go
To share our story to the people you know'
I am so blessed that I share with you
The glory of that radiant glow!
Yes, grief teaches us precious lessons in life
to live, to love, to lose and to survive
You have been shaped richer, stronger, nobler by far
and now you know yourself better..
My brave, mom!
Yet, it doesn't go away, this grief..
your eyes will well up with tears
For me now and then,
the longing will always be there
That only the two of us can share.
Remember always to make it your friend
Embrace the pain, cherish the loss, without end!
Still you wonder how anything so bad
can ever help to heal,
But mom, that is the wonderful miracle of grief!
can I measure this change, here let me try..
My death, your loss has transformed you from
a brokenhearted soul floating in ..
A bottomless sea of despair..
a soul that no longer wanted
to get up in the morning,
a soul that can find no
reason in living,
a soul that has suffered an
unbelievable loss..
Into one glorious, triumphant being!
Re-defined by grief that kept you going!
And I'm so happy for you, my mom
You are special, you have become,
You have risen from that devastating fall!
God has lifted you and has seen you
kindly through it all..
He has faithfully answered my prayers for you,
And all this time since I last said "goodbye"
I've never doubted ever that He would,
For with Him, my mom..
I know you'll get by.
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♥ ♥ ♥
Heaven is the home where spirits dwell
Who wandered here a while
And seeing things invisible,
Departed with a smile.
May this always be
a reminder of
the power of love,
the bonds of friendship,
and the enormous impact
one person can have
on so many hearts!
